很多人,经过你身边.
有些会停驻一下子,给你一个拥抱,或没给,就走了; 有的会停驻很久, 但你不能很确定他们要和你建立起何种关系,不断的推敲,
但,最辛苦的,就是在找寻那个”对的人”, 因为分分钟你会因为选择错误,而失去了他们. 或, 你以为你得到了正面的回应, 却原来只是自己的一厢情愿.
爱与不爱, 都需要勇气.
哇唠，好久没在这里写东西了，现在回来，有一种久别重逢的感觉，:D.
回头重睹了以前写下的文字，感觉就像回顾过往的点滴，像电影片段不断的逆向播放。发现曾经的问题与盲点，有些被解决了，有的被隐藏了，有的被遗忘了，有的被封锁了，有的却在继续着。但庆幸的是，我是清醒着的，所以能够用局外人的心态去正视我生活的每一个角落。
总觉得人生于世，得面对太多的情感和关系。因为不管你拥有多少物质上的丰富，到后来你总得面对你最原始的心灵干枯的问题，没有人分享你的喜悦，等于白做了。但有你想要的关系，却一样会将你烧得焦头烂额，不管你最终得到没有。
所以，人生于世，尽请的享受上天所赐的一切吧。喜怒哀愁的果实，任君品尝。
我说希望林志玲的拥抱
你一声不响地走了 我抓不着你
我知道你妒嫉 却只因一个虚构的景相
我不懂 为什么
难道这不可能的希望 竟能将我丢到淫夫的监狱
我以为已美好了 但却原来只是幻相
你不曾信任 我无法释怀
也无法忍耐
我想离去……
你说 我的心不止有你
让你无法触摸最完整的我
我说 是你太多心
让我无法拥抱最完整的你
我们之间 太多的空白
你却用妄想 将它填满
我一直退让
却将我们的距离扩大
你心中的利刃 悬挂在我胸膛
徒手 我将它握着
却血流成河
我的灵魂渐渐地飘离
你还在继续妄想吗
终于，她有男朋友了。
我以为我终于可以解脱了。
原来我还是太单纯了。她并没有放过我，一再的逼迫，一再的质疑。
原来我还是太懦弱了。我并没有面对的勇气，只能一再地逃避、解释，但却无法掩盖如洪水般的攻势，我应声倒地。
爱，并不完美，所以不要太天真了。
我知道啊，所以我并不追求完美的爱，我只需要信任与关怀
我并不贪杯，我只求微醉，不能吗?
" ….. 在我心上用力地开枪,让一切归零在这声巨响,如果爱是说什么都不能放, 我不挣扎,反正我也没差………人质在这一刻得到释放,如果爱纯粹落得如此沈长 你满意吗? 我们都别说谎."
非常喜欢五月天的这首歌，
“。。。就算是这个世界，将我抛弃，我至少快乐伤心我自己决定；
所以我说，就让它去，我知道潮落之后一定有潮起，有什么了不起。。。”
多么深入简出，多么的贴切，多么的人生化，多么的简单，却也多么的复杂。。。
最近时常下雨。
雨总是让人多愁善感。
终于，我可以用华文写部落格了，兴奋不在话下。但近来的生活状况，却让我兴奋的心犹豫了。
生活是忙的，是茫的，也是盲的。交了个不怎么明白我的女友，时常不怎么地赚钱的工作，不怎么用心地吃饭、上网、睡觉。不怎么样，开始充满了我的世界。开始怀疑我以前的梦想到底何时能实现（也可能不能实现，悲呀~）人云：人因梦想而伟大，我却抱着梦想继续沉沦。也不知道何时何月能拨开云雾。
难道我就必须这样的，不怎么样下去吗？
Sometimes, I really dunno how to comfort a gal’s heart and emotion when she is in a down mood, coz of her sensitive emotion that she will feel everyone in the earth had hurt her, and she are truely alone within this "bull shit" world. I think she din realize that there are a lot of ppl who care and concern about her, and she just keep hide herself in her so called pity little hurt heart.
Is time to wake up….my dear….I know my word is abit rough for u, but I truely, sincerely wanna acompany u a long ur sadness time, and pls do not misunderstanding my word and willing again, pls….
I like to travel by public transport, like bus and LRT. Car for me is a burdan, of course I would like to have a car, but rather than spending money for that shit, during the time I still cant afford to earn any of my own money, I preffer to take those public transportation.
I know a lot of ppl are against me, public transportation is not good, the driver is rude, not punctual to the time, service is not good,…..bla bla bla….. I know that .. and I obmit they are my complain to the public transport in Malaysia. But what I interesting about those transport is the scenario that happened on and off the transportation everyday.
Like buses, they are like terminal of ur life. Many ppl com in and out of ur life(bus) everyday, but the ppl who going on the bus won’t be the same as the ppl who leave the bus at the same terminal u leave the bus. And I like the scene where the bus driver greet each other while driving the bus in a opposite way. Although in a very short second, but makes me feel warm and touch, of the relationship between human being.
LRT in the other hand, is quite short distance for my journey. But it is like a big pool, everyone can join in and enjoy, but u must follow the rules.And u can find out a lot of faces and action (funny or opposite) happened every second if u can focus on every single person on the LRT.
What else……?
Why a very tiny problem will lead two ppl act like strangers?
Why a person being childish, and pretended he is matured?
Why a very easy question but have no answer?
I wonder, sometimes, a lot of things can be easily cleared, but why some ppl must think the problems in some strange way until he lost his direction, right direction on such problem. Aih….
I dunno wat t say to these ppl. They will have their own point of views, and u hardly can change their mind although u have the correct answer. Dunno….really dunno….confuse…..
